Some Big News!!

With a title like that how could you not know what I am going to announce? While this is old news to some we have not been very good about spreading the word to our friends afar and thought it was time to officially announce it on the blog. Yep, you all guessed it. I am pregnant! If you want the whole story, read on but it may be a bit boring but I wanted to get it written down somewhere for journaling purposes. We are very excited especially since after trying for 8 months with no luck and then being told that due to some issues with my ovaries it might be a long process and that there was a chance even after that we wouldn't be able to produce a third. I think my doctor could tell that I wasn't really ready to start dealing with the emotion that is involved with infertility treatments and my mental and physical state was already pretty messed up from the hormone imbalance my body had been dealing with so he mentioned I could just go on birth control for a while. The hope was that it would help regulate my body, give me a break and then for a rare few sometimes just going on birth control for about 6 months gives people with my problem a few months of fertility once they go off. That option sounded good to me and those were some great months on the pill. It was Yaz by the way and that little pill became my best friend. It helped me feel better physically and emotionally and I was afraid I would never choose to go off it because I was scared to go back to feeling the way I did. It was also a really nice emotional break to not wonder every month if I was pregnant because gosh darn it those dang PMS symptoms are very similar to the early stages of pregnancy and with my hormone imbalance I was often weeks late and that monthly disappointment was no fun. Anyway Brad and I just continued on with our fun summer of playing, boating, camping, and hiking and didn't think much of it. That was until I found myself in the middle of nowhere at Glacier national park without my new pill pack I was supposed to be starting. I was really baffled because I knew I packed it. I still swear to this day that I packed it. I was freaking out. I thought of every option of possibly getting another pack but I couldn't find any way to make it work. Finally I just calmed down and said "oh, well I guess we will see what happens". We continued our fun camping trip and then the next couple of weeks at home without thinking much about it. Then one day I thought, hmm I wonder what day I should be starting? When I looked at the calendar I realized I was already a few days late. I didn't get my hopes up and told myself to stop thinking about it for another week and then I would take a test. The week went by so I decided to take the test and sure enough it couldn't have been darker or more obvious and it showed up within seconds. I was pregnant. Brad was really excited and we both couldn't believe how blessed we had been. We both feel like it was meant to be because I seriously don't know how long it would have been before I decided for myself to go off the pill and actively start "trying" again. I know Heavenly Father was watching out for us and we just have to be faithful and put everything in the hands of our Lord. He knew when the time was right. That timing made this little one due to come to our family around April 2nd which is when I am set to be induced at this point. I was super sick in the beginning but around 12 weeks felt it ease up and by 14 weeks I was pretty much back to normal with the occasional dry heave. I am feeling great now (at about 16 weeks) and just anxious to get over the "fat phase". You know where everything is thickening and clothes are not fitting but you don't look pregnant yet. We will be finding out what we are having at the end of November.
Ayden and Alex have been really cute about the whole thing. We didn't tell anyone until after 12 weeks because I didn't want my smart little Ayden to overhear something and then have something go wrong. Alex, Brad and I went to my 12 week appointment while Ayden was at preschool. While my doctor was trying to find the heartbeat he asked me if we had told the girls yet. After I told him we hadn't he got a smirk on his face and said "Alex your mommy has a baby in her tummy, can you hear it?" Of course she didn't really know what was going on which is why I am sure he felt okay about that little trick but I was worried she would repeat what she heard to Ayden before we got to tell her. Once Brad got home from work that day he said "Ayden we have a surprise for you, what do you think it is? She guessed a new Barbie, a poly pocket and a bunch of other things and then Brad told her nope, pointed to my tummy and said "it is in here". Her eyes got huge and her mouth formed a big "O" and she backed herself up and said "You’re kidding me! You’re having a baby? No way, are you for reals?" It was the cutest reaction ever. She then asked why I didn't have a big belly yet and I explained how it would be a while before I looked pregnant but that the little baby is growing everyday and that my belly would be too. The next morning she came running into my room and said "Mom, are you bigger yet?" Alex doesn't really get it but every now and then she will look at my belly and say "there's a baby in there, huh mommy, I hear it?" It has been fun and I can't wait until they can feel it move. Alex is even a year older then Ayden was when I was pregnant with her so it is fun to have them a little older to be able to share this fun time with us. Ayden is going to be a big help, I am sure and I think Alex is going to be great too.